25 November - 9 December 2007

leaving for Thailand. will be back in 2 weeks' time.

people/things i will miss:
my father.
my classmates.
my churchmates.
my SFCmates
my soccermates.
my blog.
my Friendster.
my Facebook.
you.
etc.

25/11/2007
Depart Singapore: LTD 402 0810 hrs
09/12/2007
Arrive Singapore: LTD 401 2315 hrs

















it'll be marvellous if you can pray for me! thks.

1. Good spiritual & physical health = top form in serving God
2. Constant focus (on why i'm in Thailand for even if i experience spiritual dryness)
3. Leadership (courage to rise up & be used by God in getting things done)
4. Trust in God's miracles (to touch the hearts of the people there & save their souls)
5. Protection upon team members (against spiritual attacks like sicknesses & accidents)
6. Protection upon our loved ones & friends in Singapore (against adversities)
7. Tolerance & understanding (amongst team members)
8. God's providence (in everything)
9. 1st timers (Rachel, Elizabeth, Jonathan, etc.)
10. Adaptability (to the food & relatively harsh weather conditions)
11. Smooth flow (of activities, programmes & customs)
12. Ability to sense God's pleasure & joy (in everything)
13. Super-memory (in remembering the actions for dances, etc. & some Thai words)
14. Journey mercy (from one place to another in Thailand & back to Singapore)

The circuitous route

Do you know how difficult it is to do your best and hope that your best gets you either at least a C grade or at most an S grade when anything in-between gets you nowhere?


"I'm willing to take the circuitous route, but it's not enough, You must be willing too."

Countdown to my A Levels

Why not me?

I feel like I'm living the worst day over and over again
I feel like the summer is leaving again
I feel like I'm living the worst day
I feel like you're gone
Every day is the worst day ever


i skipped my History prelim exam.
my teacher called my mum and my mum told my dad.
and so my sin found me out.


Yesterday was the worst day ever
And tomorrow won't be better
It's history repeating on and on


i could see that my mum was controlling herself, refraining from ranting at me like she used to, and my dad hasn't spoken to me about it yet.
i just feel that my existence in this world has only added liabilities to the lives of people around me.
my exorbitant Maths tuition fees are scorching my mum's finances and i'm letting down others who have high expectations of me.
i feel so lousy having made my mum so worried.


The waves are calling out my name and they laugh at me,
Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed.


recently i watched the news.
earthquakes, tremors, plane crash and Avian flu, claiming lives here and there.
i ask, "Just why not mine?"


The giants keep on telling me, time and time again,
"Boy, you'll never win. You'll never win."


"Lord Jesus, You've gotta save me from the waves that are gonna crash on me in 40 days' time. It's in Your nature, 'cause i know only You have an infinitely high Marginal Propensity to Save, so please reach out Your mighty hand and pull me out of this mess that i've created myself."


But the Voice of Truth tells me a different story.
The Voice of Truth says, "Do not be afraid."
And the Voice of Truth says, "This is for My glory."


nowadays, the only times i can feel my sense of self-worth are on Sundays when i attend church and go for practice for the missionary trip to Northern Thailand after my A levels. other than that, i'm struggling each day to embrace Godly attitudes towards my existence on this planet.


Out of all the voices calling out to me,
I will choose to listen and believe the Voice of Truth.

A plea to God

How i wish God had left that bottle alone, so that He could make me start studying right from the beginning, say Sec 3. but all i can do now is look ahead, fix my eyes on Jesus and stop dwelling on my ugly past.



"i'm really sick and tired of being a mediocre student and getting mediocre grades, so God would You please be more generous in giving me Your wisdom? just 0.00000001 percent of it is more than enough to make me a genius like Albert Einstein, John Maynard Keynes or Sir Isaac Newton, but i require only about 0.00000001 percent of the amount You gave these geniuses to help me grasp their main theories and concepts so that i can pass my A levels with flying colours."


the Photoelectric effect, Theory of Income Determination and Calculus are just some of the many areas that i'm unsure of at present, but as Abraham trusted in God, so will i.


"anyway i also owe You a word of thanks for providing me with the constant encouragements from my family and friends at this time, which i am so in need of."



life has indeed been different (and difficult) for me. i'm already heading in the right direction but my pace just isn't right. after days of studying long hours (8-10 hours a day mean alot of hours to me), i would feel good that i managed to sit down and study. but at the same time, i would know that it just wasn't enough. i doubt my Prelim results would show a marked improvement. the papers were really terrible, Maths in particular ('cause i've got expensive tuition for that and yet i couldn't do well). i could sense that other students are fighting to get As while here i am struggling to get above Ss and Us, not to even mention hitting a pass. what kind of a student is that? what kind of a Christian student is that?


okay i'm not supposed to use the com for long, even though i have remarkably been using it only once a week (on Sunday mornings before i go to church). so that's my life for you at the moment. i know it's gonna be over soon 'cause i can already see the end coming. The end is near.


oh ya there's Communion later ...

Hotchpotch of desperate notes

Attitude

the past few weeks have been horrendous ad nauseam. and i don't mean that i'm no longer feeling distraught over my A levels now, even though i believe God has just spoken to me through the following words by the author of Day by Day.

"The attitude I choose keeps me going or cripples my progress. It alone fuels my fire or assaults my hope. When my attitudes are right, there's no barrier too high, no valley too deep, no dream too extreme, no challenge too great for me. Let's choose each day and every day to keep an attitude of faith and joy and belief and compassion."
- Charles Swindoll

i may not be coping well with studies (i may not be a studious person), but my attitude from now onwards shall keep me going ...

Deliverance in Hell

Glen's life cycle

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