Grudges

today's service has quietened myself down, esp aft the 2 incidents (Zoo & Yoong), n has made me ponder upon my identity as a follower of Jesus Christ.

my church celebrates Communion once every 2 weeks n this morning we celebrated it. i was reminded of wat i learnt during my baptism/confirmation classes tt if i hold any grudge agnst anyone n refuse to reconcile w/ him/her/them at the time of a Communion service, i ought not to go up n recv the body n blood of Christ.

immediately, those 2 incidents flashed across my mind. i was mentally struggling. one side of my heart told me to just continue bearing these 2 grudges agnst Greenview Secondary School n Mr Yoong, n forget abt recving Communion. but the other side of my heart told me, "Stop giving yourself an excuse to hate ppl! God's giving you a chance to forgive others so tt He can forgive you."

i began to search my heart there n then. i felt so ashamed of myself for refusing to let go of my wrath, when God forgives me time n again, no matter how i sinned agnst Him. nth can justify my sins b4 the holy presence of God except God Himself! aft a few moments, w/ the help of the Holy Spirit, i finally managed to let go of my grudges agnst those Greenview players, the referee, n Mr Yoong.

i dunno if i'd be able to resist holding any grudge in the future, but for the past grudges, i'm just gonna forget abt them. no, i'm gonna forgive, but i'm not gonna forget, cos there're always lessons to learn frm such incidents, for both myself n the other party.


Matthew 6:9-15
This is how you should pray:
"Our Father in heaven, hallowed be Your name, Your kingdom come, Your will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Give us today our daily bread. Forgive us our sins, as we forgive those who sinned against us. And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil."
For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.

1 Peter 4:8
Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.